This seems to be a question that my mind runs through nowadays. Maybe i might be a little paranoid, but i wonder whether i would love anime in three to ten years time. My life has already seen an anime decline, watching from 12 different anime titles dwindling down to 1 anime title in December. This might seem trivial but to me, it is honestly scary. Anime has been a constant for the past 4 years of my life. I can say that I've watched over 210 anime titles since the start of my secondary school life (that was when i really got into anime).
Recently i found myself watching less and less anime. The last one i watched (excluding movies) was Madoka Magica. Whenever i try to watch more titles i suddenly feel lazy. Actually i feel lazy for majority of the things i do but Anime is the only one i never really wanted to let my laziness get in my way. But it unfortunately has. I am quite afraid that one day i would not be interested in anime completely. That thought is scary. Anime has opened a gateway of new things for me, such as wanting to live in Japan and reading light novels and learning how to read and write in japanese.
Maybe the one true reason why i am so afraid is because anime is the only thing holding me up right now. In a sense, i am doing the things i do because i am interested in Japan and working my way towards that goal. But what will happen after i reach that goal? Would i fall into a state of limbo? Would my interest in Japan finally wane and leave me without a goal? This may be some sort of identity crisis that most people my age suffer from but i hope that my mind would become less hazy in the future.
But for now, i will try to follow the path that anime has set for me. Who knows. Maybe i might discover that i really am 'in love' with Japan.
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